不开心

今天又发脾气了。对同事发脾气。对自己不满。对世界不满。搞不懂为什么我不能再忍耐一点。大家都是来打工赚钱，每个人都有自己的压力。为什么。最近真的很讨厌自己。离大家远一点比较好吧。至少不会伤害到别人。

可是，我真得无法再忍耐大家对我的依赖。要求我知道一切的一切。我倍感压力。在大家的眼里，好像都认为我什么都懂，什么都会。不懂就是失败。为什么不能有个人给我依靠。大家都把一切的问题推给我，好像我都有答案。当我想表达我的立场，大家都只是配合角色，演一场‘我有在乎’的戏。老板是这样，同事也是。没有人能替悔我的压力。大家的要求压得我喘不过气了。到底，我的存在是为了设么。从来没有这么讨厌我现在的工作。从来没有这么讨厌我自己。我真的累了。不想再为了别人而活。

Dentist Visit

I went to see dentist Dr Ong today to do a report. He took an X-Ray, photo of my face, my teeth, and also did a model sample, otherwise known as moulding. My next appointment will be on 10 Sept. 9.40am appointment with Dr Ong whereby he'll do an evaluation of my report, den 10.00am, appointment with Dr Pong for 2 teeth extraction for my upper jaw.

After finally taking out all 4 wisdom teeth, I have to go thru another 4 teeth extraction. Urgh. But it should not be so complicated as they will be extracting the 4th teeth on each side, which is rather in front so... should be easy pulling it out?! *Cry* it's the injection that worries me. Better eat tons and tons of good food in Bangkok den.

Celebrity Look-alikes

Who is this Ueto Aya? Hmm...

昨天庆祝ms zoo的生日。我们订了一间房在furama riverfront hotel. 来一个surprise party. 我们都玩的不亦乐乎。虽然有点冷场，可是ms zoo, 你应该有一点感动吧? 友情万岁。哈哈。

前几天听到一位不是很熟的朋友，爸爸去世。今天又听到一位同事的爸爸也去世。而且是医生不知道死因。所以，要真的真的珍惜每一分，每一秒。生命是碎落的。

Snapshots

I went to watch the Fireworks Show last Saturday. The view from the temp stadium as spectacular. Here's my attempt to capture the beautiful fullerton and CBD area on my not-so-professional but small and handy digicam,



and when the fireworks finally started


View from the top

And finally when it was time to go back,



Thankfully, Fen's bro was kind enuff to send all of us 4 back. Yes, even me, the only north side resident.

Supper at Jalan Kayu


My tissue prata in Singapore. Not nice leh...


My usual Milo Dinosaur


The BIG menu


No smoking by law



It was already 2 plus or 3 plus when we left.


No make-up. No concealer. I look horrible.


2 guys putting up an advert on Forum Shopping Mall building


Nuggets and Ice-Cream on a sunny Monday. Yummy.


And here's a shot of Ms Koots' table during her attempt to dig out tons of outlet bills for billing. Haaa...

Whats in my bag?

Alright, let's see now, I have a bag (duh!), monkey, gal stuff & plaster in that blue pouch, iPod/Ayshin, oil blotter paper, tissue, accessories in that black pouch, make-up bag, w880i, chocolate!, sweets, umbrella ella ella e e, body mist (neroli jasmine scent), coin pouch, wallet, nintendo ds lite, office & house keys, receipt, credit card application form, work schedule, a spoilt zipper.

張棟樑 - 如果

不瞒你说 我真的有想过
从今以后不在跟你 有任何联络
不要再试着暗示我
后来你发现什麽
不瞒你说 并不特别寂寞
接下来的几个週末 节目特别多
偶而会有人喜欢我
但并不代表什麽

现在的我 不缺什麽
认真的生活 偶而会难过
新朋友很多
他们 (都) 不够了解我
问了太多 我隻是 微笑的带过
未来的我 没有如果
不相信星座 能预告什麽
假设那麽多 过去会不会复活 (能不能来过)
最好没有如果 (我不相信如果)

不瞒你说 经过几次风波
你不能再从我脸上 读出些什麽
要适应的是越来越多
改变的不止是我

大家可能不知道我很喜欢的一件事。就是看啊猫阿狗包包里的东西。大概一年多前，我发现了http://www.flickr.com/groups/whats_in_your_bag/pool/。 我有空没空都会去看一下。最近不是都在看 youtube 吗? 哈哈，看我找到了这个

第十二彈包包突擊隊: Cyndi王心凌篇


还有

第一彈包包突擊隊：Nicholas張棟樑篇


还有

第三彈包包突擊隊：Rainie楊丞琳篇


会不会很好奇，每个人的包包装了什莫。同时可以给一些点子，出门应该必备什莫。难道你不好奇吗？

有空来拍拍一下你包包里的东西吧。跟大家分享。

有没有看到左方下角有张栋梁的陌路MV。我超爱。优其是在02:54，那一幕，超美，超帅。哇塞那烟飘呀飘，太美了吧！全世界的mv其实我最喜欢的还是台湾的。虽然都很typical, 可是我就是喜欢。最经一直在看youtube的video。直接忽略了我的电视机嘛。

明天要去看焰火。和丽芬那般老婆们看。我的相机最好别没电池。

好啦。我若有错字请多多包含。

Meme!

12 Layers

Layer 1: On The Outside
Name: Jess
Birth Date: 05 Nov 83
Current Status: Single
Eye Colour: Black
Hair Colour: Black

Layer 2: On The Inside
My Heritage: Malaysian and Singaporean blood. Hainanese mix Hokkien. But only speaks chinese and english
My Fears: The unknown
My Weaknesses: Hot tempered, sensitive, super tactless at times, picky
My Perfect Pizza: Cheese!! with ham, bacon, chicken, beef

Layer 3: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
My First Thoughts of waking Up: going back to bed
My Bed Time: ranging from 12 midnight to 3 am
My Most Missed Memories: first heartbreak

Layer 4: My Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Orange Juice?
McDonalds or Burger King: Definately Mac
Single or Group Dates: single
Adidas or Nike: Adidas
Tea or Nestea: Milo?
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocoalte
Cappuccino or Coffee: Milo?

Layer 5: Do You…
Smoke: 2nd hand smoker
Curse: I try not to. Even if I did, I dun mean it. Serious.
Take A Shower: Of course -_-
Have A Crush: On myself
Go To School: Nope
Want To Get Married: Not now
Believe In Yourself: I must
Think You’re A Health Freak: Nope. I eat watever I like.

Layer 6: In The Past
Drink Alcohol: yup
Gone to the Mall: yup
Been on Stage: performing piano (once), chinese dance, violin, handbell and literature drama (once). miss those days.
Eaten Sushi: yup
Dyed Your Hair: use to

Layer 7: Have You Ever…
Played A Stripping Game: Nope
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: Nope

Layer 8: Are You Hoping To…
Get Married: In the future

Layer 9: In A Guy
Best Eye Colour: Whichever suits his skin
Best Hair Colour: Black
Short or Long Hair: As long as it looks good.

Layer 10: What You Were Doing
A Minute Ago: watching Youtube
Hour Ago: still watching Youtube.
Four And A Half Hours Ago: Having Dinner
A Month Ago: At Redang
A Year Ago: Same. working.

Layer 11:
I Love: Chocolate
I Hate: depression
I Hide: alot of things
I Miss: everyone
I Need: Moolah and Love

Insomnia

Hello people. Yes, I'm still awake at such unearthly hour. Been having trouble sleeping early of late. I should say, I choose not to sleep early. No, I'm not tired. I only get sleepy in the morning. But it's still bearable during my working hours. At least I haven't concuss at my desk.

I'm getting 4 hours of sleep everyday and still surviving. Soon, I'll learn to drink my first cup of coffee. Any recommendation?

Some photos to share:


Duck Noodles at some random restaurant at Vivo. Very nice!


Xiao Long Bao


Bored at work


Ms Koots & Me


50 luggage for our corporate guest stored in our FOM office.


Sheena, Augustine & Ashraf


Ashraf & me at Augustine's Wedding


At Terry & Candice's wedding at Orchard Ballroom


Back from Terry & Candice's Wedding

张栋梁 - 陌路

I need fats donation

Hmm... did pretty much nothing today. Pre-Con Meeting this evening was a drag. So many groups, so many missing info. *RME* Went to get a haircut after work. Got my fringe out of the way and trim my hair a little. Picked up my dress for this Friday's Wedding. Sooooo tired.

Anyone's got any idea how to get fat? I simply dun understand why I'm so skinny. Is it the Yakult I always drink after meals at home? I cut down alot on sweets. I eat chocolates occasionally but I try to eat my meals regularly. Someone help me... !!!

I went to watch this with my colleagues. I seriously can't watch Trillers or Horror Movies without stressing myself out. Covering my eyes and peeping through my fingers, it's tiring! But this movie is like some teenage flick with some added horror parts.

Next up:


Who wanna watch?? Please raise your hand.

Officially Wisdom-Less

I finally got my last wisdom tooth out. I'm in pain now. And I refuse to eat the painkillers . It was a less traumatizing ordeal this time round. But the injection was the worst. Especially when they inject the upper part of ur mouth. Best moment ever. It took like 5 mins to get it out. My tooth was really big so it was kinda hard. The root was longer than the tooth. Yikes. I was in a state of shock I forgot to take a picture of it. *Sigh* I still gotta get one of my tooth filling re-done. It's falling out? or cracked? No idea.

I'm going to bed now. Good night!

Alright. The result of staying home and watching too much movie. A new home. I'm still in the midst of shifting all my entries over. Getting shoulder ache and headache doing so. Enjoy the new look. =)

I'm still figuring out how to place my tagboard here. Apparently, wordpress dun accept 'object' html code. Hmmm...

Hur hur hur. Spend the whole day at home. Watch Cartoon KAT-TUN show, watch Me Myself Thai Movie, now watching Spider Lilies. My back is aching ooohhh. It's so terrible to sit on the floor. Wat to do, no money to buy new furniture. Haaaa~

I've watched 3 movies in 3 days. 'Alone', 'Simpson's', and 'Flash Point'. Horror, comedy, action.

I only watch 30% of the movie 'Alone'. I covered my eyes and sometimes my ears too during the scary parts. My colleague say waste money to scare ourselves. But it was fun, we half laugh half scream our way thru the 2 hours show. 'Simpson's' was a crappy movie but very funny. Was laffing the whole 2 hours. Very Simpson movie it is. And Flash Point was those typical Hong Kong police and triad member story but their fighting scene are way cool, and sometimes gruesome. Twisted leg, arms. Urgh!

Ms koots was helping Ms Scatterbrain with her make-up at the back office.


That's our asst concierge Mr Azman behind


Us


Check out the new signboard at the bus-stop outside delfi. Now I know when my bus is coming.