Letting go...

I woke up this morning sobbing really badly.
I had a nightmare about my ex-boss. (sigh!)
Being mis-understood, and mis-judged, and under-appreciated, just makes you wanna end it all.
And I felt horrible and extremely fatigue the whole day.
Couldn't get myself to do anything productive today.
Although I try to get myself to let go of whatever has happened in the past, its hard.
I remind myself that I'll only be unhappy holding on to those thoughts.
But my ex-colleagues will lament to me from time to time about the drama at work and my ex-boss' super ridiculous acts.
At times, I wish I could be there to defend them since I have a bit more knowledge of how the whole organisation works.
Else, I'm just glad I'm out of there... being angry everyday is bad.
It's all but a physchological battle everyday.

I need to get my life back... or risk getting Avoidant personality disorder.

Oh ya, the night before, I dreamt that my upper braces came off and half my teeths were dropping out or shifted out of place.
I was told that's a bad sign, that someone blood related will pass away.
I guess that wun apply to me... since I dream of such stuff from time to time.

Darn, I'm getting too many weird dreams.
I need a manual switch to shutdown my brain during sleep.