Finally a break from work. Spend a last few hours cleaning up my room. Revamping my cupboard. Clear out the rubbish. Did abit of grooming. Haa, and my mom was quite impressed with my almost-tidied room. Unfortunately, my vanity table is still in a mess. And I have no idea what to do with my stack of magazines. The weather looks good today. Miss sentosa already. Damn. The draft schedule for next week is out. Midnight shift again on the weekends. Boohoo~ worst, I have a trainee attached to me. Yikes! That means I have to teach. Teaching means patience. I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO PATIENCE AT ALL!!! Which is why I'm not a teacher, never inspired to be one anyway, unlike the one next door (refering to my sister). But I wonder if she really like to teach. Cause she's serving her bond. But den again, if she doesn't like teaching, she wouldn't take up the NIE scholarship right? Oh never mind. Not my business.

I WANNA GET MY IPOD MINI NOW!!!

Nowadays, it's so hard to download songs via net. Which explains why I'm so deprived of new and latest songs. So I dug out one of my 100-over-songs-in-one-CD-mp3-collection and start listening to oldies. I dun even think they can be consider oldies. Just 20th century. The worst part is, I'm driven to listen to techno. Cause I categories my songs by language. Come to think of it, do they have chinese techno? Cause I've never heard of one before. Except that Sammi Cheng song lah. Oh... Linking Park. It's been so long since I last heard their song. Crawling.

Ok, I'm actually contemplating on adding another entry today cause I wan my camwhoring pictures on top but I got too many thoughts buzzing about in my brain and I seriously need to let it out. *Pauses for a while and stoned* Oh dear, when I decided to write, my brain freezes. Damn.

I had a started-bad-but-ended-good day. It started off real bad because of the rain in the morning and my resistance to wake up early and squeeze with all the uniform students in the train. And den! I saw this RGS gal with iShuffles. Argh. I wan iPod mini. Anyone wanna sponsor one for me? I'm willing to do anything... no?! Fine. I'm a modern gal, I'll buy myself. Split personality see, how irritating. Straight forward people are so hard to find nowadays. WATEVER. Some people can be so superficial, reading me on the surface. Dude, you dun even know me. Get lost. Ok... side track. Back to the tedious journey to work, exit the control station. Was at the bottom of the escalator when I smell rain, literally. I din think it was raining cos people coming down from the escalator was not wet or drench or carrying an umbrella. But no, it was raining cats & dogs outside. Talk about monday blues. To spare the details, a kind uncle tongbang me with his foldable umbrella all the way to Orchard Towers. And I was late for 5 mins.

Actually listening to Podcast by Dannybunny & Elaine. Yes, I'm slow to react. They're at episode 13 already and I've only just started. It's hilarious listening to them talk. All those slangs and singlish. And I'm quite excited about this weekend cause I get to go for my Handbell Alumni Practice! Yeah. Finally some jamming... erm sort of. Feels good to soak urself with the passion for music. Yummy! And people, Mr Sam aka Jay-Chou-Nickamed-by-yours-truely has suggested Chomp Chomp for dinner someday. Class gathering anyone? Volunteer organiser anyone? Can't always be me right, although I only did one, but at least people turned up. Ok, excuses... I know. *Slaps myself* Feeling so bitchified today. Must be all those hanging out with ah fen.

- Blurry by Puddle of Mudd - Everything’s so blurry and everyone's so fake and everybody’s empty and everything is so messed up pre-occupied without you I cannot live at all my whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawl you could be my someone you could be my sea you know that I’ll protect you from all of the obscene I wonder what your doing imagine where you are there’s oceans in between us but that’s not very far can you take it all away can you take it all away when ya shoved it in my face explain again to me can you take it all away can you take it all away when ya shoved it in my face everyone is changing there’s no one left that’s real to make up your own ending and let me know just how you feel cause I am lost without you I cannot live at all my whole world surrounds you I stumble then I crawl you could be my someone you could be my sea you know that I will save you from all of the unclean I wonder what your doing I wonder where you are there’s oceans in between us but that’s not very far Nobody told me what you thought nobody told me what to say everyone showed you where to turn told you where to run away no body told you where to hide nobody told you what to say everyone showed you where to turn showed you where to run away explain again to me you take it all you take it all away... explain again to me you take it all away explain again to me take it all away explain again

I have decided to get myself a life. Have fun cause life is short. No point feeling all depressed when other people dun give a damn anyway. All those negative people, get out of my life!

I am seriously fedup about work. I'm having my off days but I'm still fedup about work. The fact that I had to give up so many things because of work. The irregular working hours. I know all these stuff when I decided to take up this job. I was still willing to give up everything for this job. But now it seems meaningless and stupid. We dun get appreciated at all. We have to make zero mistakes in work else we kenna. We get unreasonable guest and when they complain, we get the blame. Management make a fuss we kena. My off days, make plans to go out with friends, one phone call and that's it. I have to go back and work. Can't say no also. Plans to meet up with friends after work, someone MC, change my shift. Gonez... When my juniors wanna set up Handbell Alumni again I can't commit. My friend ask me go back dancing but I can't commit. My japanese lesson stop because I can't commit. When friends ask me out I can only get back to them when my schedule is out. It's on weekly basis somemore. Sometimes, I dun get to see my mom cause when I'm awake she's out working, when I'm back she's asleep already. I duno why some people can be in this line for so long. The job deprives you of any social life. Now I feel so fedup when people ask me out on weekends and I say I have to work. And now I have alot of midnight shift. I hate midnight shift. It's like standalone. And it's damn tiring. ARGH! I can't even blog about happy things anymore. I actually had a great time today but no... i need to rant about work. I'm almost ready to pack my bags and check out of the hotel!

CIRQUE DE SOLEIL IS COMING TO TOWN. I WANT TO WATCH. IT'S QUIDAM SOMEMORE! MY FAVOURITE. WHO WANNA WATCH WITH ME?

Oh no. I'm having very bad mood swing. In other words, I'm pms-ing. But on a lighter note (i'm trying to make myself happier, see...), I have 3 off days for the weekends to enjoy myself. And of these 3 days, I'll probably shut myself at home for 2 days. Duh... no plans, no idea what to do. And remember, I'm pms-ing. I dun wanna do PR. Hopefully the dark clouds hovering above my head clears by morning.

Probably gonna get a haircut after work. It's pretty messed up right now. And I can't stand the sight of it. ARGH. Maybe I'll feel better after the washing, massaging, stinky chemicals, cutting and blow drying eh. Den again, I might head straight home after work being the usual lazy me.

I hate going to places alone but ones gotta learn to be independent someday right. And it's never too late/early to start now. The last time I recall shopping alone (note: not window shopping) was a few years back in my sec school days. I did xmas shopping and bought stuff for everyone. Makes me wonder where all the moolah came from at that era. Funny... I always feel richer when I'm studying.

Last but not least, I finally got my Hong Leong Card. I've been working here for 5 months already?! Haa... time for more shopping!

I'm craving for this... It cost SGD$455(incl GST). Very cool gadget. But I'll probably think twice about buying it even if I have that kinda money to spare. Firstly, I dun really need it. I can put that money to use somewhere else. Like I said, it's juz craving. Just did an update on my wishlist. There's always endless things to buy. I need moolah... and I wanna change my hp. Getting sick of it. Been using it for almost 8 months now. Time for a change. I wan a flip phone. I never had a flip phone. Boo...

Opps... new layout. No space to put my tagboard. Wun wanna squeeze everything into one page. It's raining again today. Yesterday it was so hot. And the day before? Raining the whole day. The weather is going crazy. It's driving me up the wall. It better stop raining when I go to work. That's like 6 hours later anyway.

Jas msged me yest. Calling for a meet up. It's been months since we last met up huh. But now that almost everyone's working or in NS or studying, it's real hard to have full attendance. Take me for example, I have to work 6 days a week. We'll see how it goes, I sabo yilin to do the contacting. Hee... I'm so mean.

Can't wait til saturday. I'm going sentosa for tan session. YEAH~!~!~! Her monthly friend better not come. Else I'll die of fustration. Which reminds me... I need to take passport photo. Need to get a new Islander card. Stupid me actually threw my own expired card away. *Knocks own head*. Need to visit my dentist soon too. She's so gonna nag at me for not visiting her for a year plus. Maybe she's not even working there anymore. Yikes! I also need to get my thumbprint stamped on some documentation so they (whoever) can start taking my money outta my bank and transfer into my dad's CPF. I need to buy new working shoes too before the present one starts opening it's mouth to complain. Last but not least.... I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE WEEKENDS!!

Sometimes I wonder to myself why I did not choose a stable office hour job. I do hate the routine timing but it does bring me more convenience when it comes to meeting my friends, and planning things. Not to mention, one cubicle to call my own space. Comfy chair, own PC, if lucky, I get to listen to music while working, and have internet access. And I get to sit all the time. And attend to my handphone almost anytime. But I choose a 6 days a week job. Irregular working hours. Have to bun my hair, stand for 8 hours, deal with different people all over the world and not have time for anything else personal. I sometimes think where this job will bring me to. It's the love and passion that keeps me going. But sometimes, it gets really fustrating when nothing goes well.

Another new gal has resigned. Two colleagues of mine were called into the office for a 'meeting'. I wonder how long this 'short-of-manpower' thingy is gonna last. We're all getting tired. There's no such thing as having fun while working anymore. Feel so depressed today. I really need a break from work.

Work was pretty alright although it was only me and another colleague. I noticed something yesterday, the new comers nowadays tend to talk back. And one of them doesn't seem to even have the basic respect for the job. Not serious at all. The other, talks too much about her views and opinions. Maybe it's the age thingy. But it really makes me wonder how I behaved when I was new.

Enough about work. I promise not to bring work back home. But I dream of work everyday. Billing to city ledger, or credit card... deluxe orchard wing... yadah yadah. I'm going bonkers. So is my laptop. My screen has been jumping since yesterday. Time to start saving for a new laptop.

Life is a bliss when you can watch tv and surfing the net at the same time. I was able to do that a year back but ever since my tv in my room broke down, it was either tv or comp. Now I can start brushing up my multi-tasking skills again! Dun jump into conclusions. I haven got a tv for my room yet. Just make it a habit to surf in the living room now. Since it's a laptop, it's meant to be on the lap right. Lame? Ya... I know. Going abit nuts right now. Hee..

I couldn't wake up in time this morning again and had to rush to work. Only to be told my other colleague is on 'MC'. So it's juz me, a new gal, a trainee and my duty manager. I could say today was one of the most fustrating day for me. Cos she juz simply dun follow instructions. Turn a deaf ear to what I say and simply 'push' everything to me. So now I can proudly declare we have 2 traffic police in my dept. I can understand that she's new, yadah yadah yadah. But once she was updating her reg card and simply psuh one of the guest to another person. I was like 'wat the!?' Ok... I shall stop being mean. I was new before. Still new thou. Work was like crap anyway.

Urgh... had a bad tummy ache while on the way to work. Was late for 20 mins. Opps, haha. So work is still the same. I'm still the only cashier today despite what happened yesterday. Got nothing to say also. *stressed out* Stayed until 5pm just to tally all my paperwork. *Pout* I need a break. I wanna relax.

Boohoo~! I can't renew my heeren card. They've stop all loyalty program for now. Damit. Which means I gotta wait for my Hong Leong Card and start shopping in Tangs from den on. *Pouts*

Met up with fren after work. Sat and chat most of the time. Was great talking about things... at least, I felt better after that. And she kinda became my love doctor. Haa. Going Sentosa the following weekend. Woohoo~! Who wanna go? And ms zoo, if you're reading this, pls on your handphone. I dun wanna talk to your voicemail.